Three first responders – a paramedic, a police officer and a firefighter – are motivated by a desire to serve the community. But they are drawn to their work by more complicated impulses as well: a need for control, an acute awareness of danger, and childhood experiences they are still running from.

Peter, a paramedic, served at high-profile disasters including the Port Arthur massacre and the Beaconsfield mine collapse. Despite helping countless people, he is haunted by the lives he couldn't save.

Tara, a firefighter, experienced devastating loss at a young age. She found camaraderie in the fire brigade, but also confronting reminders of her past.

Brett, a police officer, survived childhood neglect and abuse. Policing offered a way to impose order, but it eventually forced him to question his rigid moral view of the world.

In telling their stories, Martin McKenzie-Murray draws on his own experience and his research into trauma and recovery to ask profound questions about human motivation and survival. What draws people to these intense professions, and how does their work reshape them? And what happens when their carefully built walls between past and present, personal and professional, start to crumble?

'In these intimate portraits, Martin McKenzie-Murray gives us rare insights into the universal human need to seek safety in an unjust world and the life-saving powers of our infinite capacity for meaning-making. A complex, courageous and deeply moving work.' —Sarah Krasnostein, author of The Trauma Cleaner

'In this compelling and unputdownable work, Martin McKenzie-Murray draws three tenderly observed portraits of lives – and selves – forever altered by trauma. Deeply moving, compassionate and written with fierce intelligence, Sirens is McKenzie-Murray at his best.' —Ariane Beeston, author of Because I'm Not Myself, You See

'This is some of the best writing you will ever read.' —Readings Books

'A personal work, and a window into the shadow world of those we call on in our hours of need.' —The Guardian

'Make no mistake, these are confronting stories. But they are also important stories that deserve to be told. McKenzie-Murray accomplishes this respectfully and well.' —The Advocate

'a cry from the heart, informed and augmented by the author's own complex personal history. Sirens demands that we cease treating personal trauma as individual failure.' —The Saturday Paper

'a delicately wrought work . . . Martin McKenzie-Murray goes beyond the steely professional front of first responders to examine the toll such a career can exact' —Inside Story

'thoughtful and empathetic and judicious – a book of hard-earned wisdom' —Australian Book Review